Would you like a side of salty with that success?

So many people have such long arms--they want to reach fame and fortune before days end. As I listen to Iron and Wine, my dirtied fingernails begging the keyboard for clemancy, I want to to lead a simple life. I don't want to be the best--just good enough. I want to feel wanted by those around me. We had our last level five class tonight at IO--and I keep getting the note that i don't act confidently enough, that I self doubt. I've been blaming myself since the beginning for that and I do shoulder the blame to an extent--but it the burden is not entirely mine. These guys in my class are so funny and so nice--well, they used to be--but they make me feel so shitty. They make me feel like they're doing me a favor by playing with me. I've improved alot no thanks to them--started saying screw it--but I'd so like to have them want to play with me. Today I was told that there's a great actress in me waiting to come out but I need to be more decisive. I will try. And I will try to speak with the ring leader of this group, group leader of sorts though i'm not sure what will come of it. Oh im a tired chickadee but will go to bed and re-energize. Nite!