magic in nyc?

I worry there isn't magic in new york city.

I tell this to maggie and I hear a deep pause--she thinks i'm nuts. But not, may I say, for being concerned about magic, but rather because to her the answer is so obvious, that nyc is the "coolest place to be".

Maybe. But, I think you need solitude to discover it, to feel it. Not because you can't feel it with others, but because its so rare to find other people who want it, need it like I do. What is magic? I think it's many things and i've yet to find a suitable definition. I think, somewhere beteen unexplainable and god. Something that can be touched. I like the cover. I think u can see it, but my computer sluth skills are sketchy. Can you see the girl? Reaching out towards the rain? I want to feel that, except i'm not 8.

I think I worry about being responsable, about being able to cope. But, perhaps thats a problem with being American in this world, not with new york.

"and by the way, if you're just looking for a normal guy who will pay for supper and then take you to watch "the game," you should really write to me. i'm curious to know what it's like to have the imagination of a piece of sheet metal. "

Sometimes i read craigslist's m 4 w section. This was from a post. THis is why i only read them. There are mean people in this world!

Im tired and will write more later but, how remarkable.